asfv; thank yous.

amidst all the post-foc reflections, i'm kinda left speechless now because i don't know what else to say. i do have an extremely long thank you note to alot of people though. and there are a load of lessons learnt and some awesome memories that i'll prob be happy to take through life with me. (: of course there are a few regrets here and there, i think i'll never be fully satisfied by anyone but the one and only. (:

anyway, most important things first. thank yous. albeit late, but nonetheless...

programmers
you guys have been the best. i think i would've died in foc without the 5 of you to talk to, bounce off ideas with, bitch session with, complain, rant, laugh, cry, shop, spend money, bake etc. thanks for the awesome time we've had together pre-camp, and thanks so uber much for pulling through for me during my day. thanks for all the support, and encouragements. and really. i'm so thankful that i got to know you guys better through this camp, it has really been great working with you guys. (: i'm so glad we also did not see each other as 'colleagues' but as friends who stick through it together. (: so thanks so much.

;angie-you know, i think after everything, you're not as fierce as you make yourself out to be (: haha. especially after the bargaining incident with nurbs and me (: but thanks be being such a great chief prog and making sure none of us explode with stress over the past i dunno how many months. haha we shall look forward to more baking/cycling/tennis/shopping soon k?

;sarah-hey dear! it's been such a joy getting to know you getter through this camp, really. and congrats for fright night. despite all the obstacles, it turned out great did it not? (: thanks for being the eh... the sane one amongst us. i think you're the most calm during everything. (: and really, looking forward to next year when we do pr tgt. (:

;joanne-i'm so glad you decided to stay in progs with me. remember how stressed we were about our other commitments etc? i'm so glad we both decided to stay. it was really great having someone in dg and in foc with me. and thanks for being such a pillar of support for me and always there to laugh with us and complain with us etc. (: all the best for dnd, and don't worry we're all definitely gonna be there. can't wait for PR and cc next year (:

;nurbaya!-man! how far we've come huh? you know i'm still so thankful for the 2nd sem of yearone. man we had some awesome memories then huh? and i think i owe you a huge thank you for putting up with me and letting me tag along in all the awesome things you get to do in life. i think i would never have met alot of other people in cs if not for you. i'm glad we had that very emotional talk on friday because i think despite it all, it reminded us of where we were as friends. and i think it's important to take stock every so often (: i'm damn grateful for your friendship babe, and know that i'll always be there to lend a shoulder or a listening ear yea? thanks for all the fun crazy memories and making our duo a formidable one. (: friends always never doubt that.


main comm
my gosh, how much we've grown? i honestly didn't know like... anybody in the main comm when i first joined until like laterish. but i'm so glad to see that despite all our initial differences we still managed to pull off one helluva camp! couldn't have done it without all of you man. no matter how distant we proggers may have made ourselves at times, we would never have been able to pull off the camp without the rest of you guys. this isn't the proggers camp. we all did it. (: thanks so much to the biz mags for endlessly raising funds and making sure we have loads of goodies and hopefully a surplus of money. (: thanks for making sure we have enough budget to have fun with games and food and logistics etc. (: thanks also hugely to the log/welfare team. you three are officially the supermen in my life. i think if there were any 3 people who worked the hardest at the camp. hands down it would've gone to you three! pub pple my gosh, you two are an amazing pair for getting everything pub related to pull through. the blog, the shirts, the photoshoots etc, the gorgeous booklet and the amazing freshie packages. you guys did such a difficult job, damn proud of you two (: and of course fin con and sect. the most behind the scenes works, think about it, you two prob had the most power (: thank you loads for not abusing it. haha! it's been great getting to know the 2 of you better. and major kudos to the endless tiring admin work the two of you had to deal with. thank you. finally of course the vice chair and chair. junqi, you did an amazing job, tying up all the loose ends, working tirelessly to support wl in everything and making sure that when he's busy everything still goes smoothly. thank you so much. and wl. man, so many things happened between us, between you and the pple 'against' you etc. so many sides to the conflict. but you know what. despite it all, it's still a major respect for the amount of effort you put into this camp, the heart you have for this camp, and the dedication you had. we had and will definitely still have our differences. but that won't ever discount the fact that you really did give your all for this camp. so thank you.


(day2 on the long list of thank yous because i fell asleep typing this last night.)

;ash-i think it was a combination of COM204 and this that got me to know you better. (: thanks for being so awesome and it really has been great working with you, laughing, crying, bitching etc. (: girlfriends ftw! and still thanks uber much for emceeing on starrystarry night (: ah babe, can't wait for school to start (: haha!

;jeslynn, chihua, nurbs, sarah, joanne, ash, evadne, junqi, mingyi, kaijie-special thanks to you guys for helping me out during amazing race ABOVE all your maincomm duties. i thank you so so much for pulling through for me and doing this hugeass favor for me. do look for me when school starts for a cup of bubble tea or something along those lines (:

;ALL the station masters for day3- you know who you are, thanks so much for sitting there and waiting patiently in the rain in the morning, in the hot sun in the afternoon and being bored outta your minds. thanks so much! and yes, the offer of chocolate/bubble tea/something along those lines are up for you guys too (: i don't know what else i can do to repay you guys!

;my subcommers-you guys, we had so many communication breakdowns. i kinda wanted to give up on alot of you on day2night. but most of you guys really pulled through for me. and i thank you guys loads for coming down despite not being camp-ey people and helping out with amazing race and also fright night. and also a huge thanks in all the help in the planning stages and canvassing moolah. part of me is really sorry that we couldn't have been more dynamic, more free to meet to recce and plan the games etc. thanks for being on time for proposals etc. (: and yea, thanks!

;graceleong-babe, you're so on it's scary sometimes. (: haha special kudos to you because you really were so super on for everything and came down to help out for all 5 days and participated as an awesome SA. (: i'm glad you enjoyed yourself and hugeass thanks to you for all the help you've given me (:



;OGLS/AGLS-you guys. rocked. seriously. the rara-ness of the entire camp would've just been nonexistent had it not been for the high-ness that you guys owned (: especially for al the amazing work done for hungrycats. my gosh. you guys rocked it. it was so awesome getting to know some of you better and really laughing at all the 'suck-up-ing' you guys did to get your og more points during the camp (: haha! thanks for making me smile, laugh, and appreciate all the loud crazy deafening cheers and kick ass attitude that made the camp what it was. (:


;the band (namely, lide, weekoon, job, janie, nuraini, and sufi) thanks for giving the performance of your life on starrystarry night (: despite the amount of shagness after the 5 days, you guys still rocked the stage. and sufi! thanks for giving your all despite all the screaming and shouting that practically killed your throat the last 5 days! i knew you guys were pretty nervous going into the camp. but you guys were seriously awesome. (: we shall hear more from ya'll soon ok?



wah, there's still alot more people i wanted to thank. like the awesometastic seniors who came down to enjoy the sand, hard floors and poor toilet facilities with the rest of us, for the endless advice and help offered, for capturing all the moments on tape that made the rest of us laugh and cry. (: and all the random people during the entire camp who were just there with me to laugh with, destress with, chillax with etc. been pretty darned awesome hanging with ya'll for the 5 days.

so yes. thank you. (: and i apologise for my limited vocabulary at 4 in the afternoon which resulted in repeated superlatives. (:

wkwscifoc '09

so foc'09 ended. 

loads to say. 

emotions overload. 

but mostly thankful (:

will blog about it when i'm properly rested up.

thank you.

of His miracles (:

ok. remember that time i lost my phone in school, and then i miraculously found it?

yea. i told you i have a tendency to lose things. so anyway, i couldn't find my keys when i came back from perth. keys don't sound all that important as they're totally replaceable most of the time right? But i also lose the hall jcrc keys, and the dbsibanking thingum. which granted are ultimately replaceable when push comes to shove. but it still made me panic loads.

first thing is did though, shameful as i am, was to panic and in my panic blame everyone else around. my mum, my maid, even my brother. i suspected all of them. yep, panicking does that to you.

then i prayed.
simple short prayer.
prayers were never strictly ruled to have to start with a long opening introduction and nicely outlined with a point per paragraph and ending with a resounding conclusion.
nah.

it was more along the lines of
"Oh God, please help me find my keys. Amen."

so i stopped panicking for a while, and just waited for Him to reveal to me where i misplaced my keys. still couldn't find it, and by then it was starting to get frustrating a little cos i needed to do some transactions online with the dbsibanking thing (not online shopping i promise!)

so i panicked again, started to think that my mum secretly took it and hid it to teach me a lesson. yep, that's how crazy i was getting. even thought my maid stole it.

man i think at this point of time i should probably say a huge sorry to them, and to God for thinking such poor things of the people around me.

so anyway, went to search again.
went to pray again.

this time i around 1am today i wrote in my journal "2july2009: dear God please help me find my keys."

i don't know why, but something just made me feel like going back to check the bag that i KNEW i left it in, but i checked 3 times already and didn't find it.
opened the bag.
looked in.

and saw my keys in the side pouch.

(:

once again let's give a nice big amen to just how awesome our God is. (:

thank You for another reminder about how great youu are. :D

this is what we call cheap thrill (:

oh i wanted to talk about this ages ago.
i can't remember if i did or not. it was the wed before i left for perth.

so we met up for a nice breakfast/morning things because weirdly the two of us are real morning persons when we feel like it.
so anyway.
movie. @ cathay (duh, cos we're still students there. and cathay is nice enough to recognise that we students aren't the richest people around)

choice between the taking of pelham123 or monsters vs aliens 3D.
we found out the mva3d was $10 and was no eligible for student $6 deal.
SO.
we got taking of pelham 123 for $6.
both a little bummed out cos we both wanted to watch mva more.

oh mva started 5 minutes before the other one.
we went in early. spotted the 3d theatre. looked around and realised there was NOBODY watching us. like seriously.

plus you know how empty theatres can be on weekday mornings.
thank you for empty movie theatres singapore.

so we sauntered into the mva3d movie (:
hence saving ourselves 4$ and cheating the system money. (:

ok i know it's bad and wrong.
and honestly it was only 4bucks.

but it was cool
epitome of cheap thrill (:

i'm honestly not ashamed to say i read xiaxue's blog. (:

she's INTERESTING.
and makes for a real good read every so often.

anyway. total ups for the latest entry.
no guessing which side i'm on. (: bleach blondes ftw!



it's so FREAKING HOT. in singapore.

this entry is the type that falls between a tweet and a normal entry..

around the point and through it... hopefully.

i could blog 30 times in one day. because things keep popping it in my head. and i just have to write it down somewhere before i forget. because i'm one of those with a memory comparable to a goldfish (which is estimated to be about 5 seconds).

and like i said many times before. this blog, more than anything, works as a reminder for me. when i read back i can see how far i've come (or haven't), and like the title, see the works of our awesome Father, of Your love in my life thus far. (:

i can also blog 30 times a day because i'm known for being the most longwinded person who can go around the point so many times i end up missing it most of the time. i am also known for my ability to digress in any situation, time or place. even in my presentations in class. which probably accounts for my sometimes extremely long and tiring entries, because i just rant and rant. sometimes, well no, most of the time, i think it's cos secretly, (but not so secretly now), i like the sound of my own voice. yep, because i'm this insecure girl who tends to forget who she is alot, and worries about the stupidest things. so she covers it by talking. talking about things that are not the point so that people will eventually forget the point. i also talk alot because of my poor memory, so i need to repeat things over and OVER and OVER again because i'll forget it otherwise.

see how i digress (:
i don't even remember what i wanted to write here.




...
oh yea.

since i'm all in the mood for repeating myself today. the second year of my last few years in the singapore education system is about to start in about a month's time. i can't help but be reminded of how i came to be in this school to begin with. especially just coming back from perth, and seeing the university i might've gone to, and the life i might've led had i gone the other way.

and yes, the 'what-if' game started for me again. ever since i started in wkwsci, my mum would ever so often ask me if i regretted not choosing USYD. we would then launch into a discussion about the life i would've had led, about the things i'd probably miss out on in singapore, but also the thing i probably am missing out on in sydney, before ending it with it, "i'm glad i decided to stay in singapore."

still though, i'd find myself drawing comparisons. all. the. time.

it's unhealthy because i know that God meant for me to be in this institution. and i should be thankful, no i AM thankful for the opportunity He has given me.

this trip in perth, someone was praying for me, and she mentioned comparisons. and i realise how much i've been doing it. espcially in perth, every single moment was a comparison for me. in fact. my whole life i've been comparing. part of it could be attributed to the competitive nature nurtured in the kids of the singapore education system. but i remember since JC days, i'd find myself comparing to SCGS. and i remember disliking JC alot. and then now, i realise whenever i'm in a situation i'm not particularly happy about. i compare with those whom i think are better than me. goes the old adage, "the grass is always greener on the other side" right?

it's time though, for me to stop. to stop trying measure all things against each other, what good does comparing do? i remember how much i hated it as a kid when my mum would compare me to another better student, to the percentile in the sch above me. what good did that do for me? well for some granted, it made them work harder. but for me, i just felt worse, and unhappy about where i was. i felt worthless, like i'd never be good enough, like there'll always be something/someone better than me and i'd never get it.

but where i am now, is exactly where God intended for me to be at this point of time.

yep, of course He has plans for me in the future, in the next hour, in the next day, in the next academic year.

but right now, this moment, is exactly where i was meant to be.

so why am i comparing all the time? questioning where God is leading me/has led me? part of me would definitely throw in the 'human nature!' card right about now. and yea it's true, i'm not perfect. i'm far from that. i still get upset and enjoy playing the 'what-if' game alot. but i do want to work towards changing myself. today, this afternoon, i want to stop comparing.

granted, sometimes it's good to take a measure against competitors to see how you're doing, to measure up so you can do better.

but right now, i'm happy where i am. there's a reason why i'm where i am, and doing what i'm doing.
i'm not saying i'm the best i can be right now, but it's all in His timing after all right?
the best is yet to be (:

so instead of complaining and comparing where i am now, shouldn't i just take it in my stride, and step forward. after all, if we keep looking left and right, how can you possibly look forward. (: like i learnt in driving school. i had this tendency to keep looking towards the curb when i drove, and naturally, the car would move to the left. so i changed, but then i ended up looking at the next lane, so the car would keep swaying towards the right, and crossing into the other lane. the instructor kept telling me to keep my eyes on the road ahead. when i started to get more comfortable with the car, and focused on looking ahead, my car was finally going straight, in the correct lane, and not drifting left or right. likewise, why would i want to crash into a curb, or follow someone else's life? God has a plan intended for me, up ahead, i just need to focus on what His plan is for me. instead of trying to follow someone else's.

Freely You gave it all for us
Surrendered Your life upon the cross
Great is your love poured out for all
This is our God

- This is our God; Hillsong

on self-quarantines.

in the interest of the mankind in singapore. and to prove that i'm slightly more responsible than most singaporeans out there. oh and the pressure by my camp committee and good friends and mum. i'm on a self-imposed-quarantine. with daily checks on my temperature and everything.

even though i'm coming from perth which to my knowledge has like 2 suspected cases. compared to the almost 550ish cases in singapore. i'm more likely to get the virus from here than from perth. but oh well right?

so current temperature is 35.1
whoop.





i arrived back this morning at 6.35am. pretty uneventful flight. except! the person beside me. i walk in, expecting the window seat, to see this guys already with the blanket around him head lolling towards the seat beside him, arms on BOTH armrests and jutting out. he looks up, smiles, goes back to sleep. his left arm still jutting out. and so i settle myself into the aisle seat beside him. and thus goes the rest of the flight. with his left elbow dangerously near my right ribcage, where any violent movement would've cased the aforementioned left elbow to come crashing into my right ribcage, and perhaps causing me a premature death.

drama mamaisms aside. i did manage to enjoy the flight. watched some of the big bang theory, and the it crowd. (:

i do dislike people who waste away the window seat though. there's a reason why there's a window there. don't book a window seat, and then SLEEP. -.- you could've swapped with me. i'd love to look out the window, and enjoy the full benefits of a window seat, instead of sleeping it away. instead you left me leaning slightly to the left because of the aforementioned jutting left elbow. ):

ahhh! i do like the new krisflyer layout though.

credits to image here.

pretty nifty right? enjoyed it much. appreciate the little light underneath the console so i don't feel so bad about potentially waking up the rest of the cabin. and check out the usb cable! omg! so gonna use it next time i fly SQ. 



ok not going to talk about perth here. because there's so much. i don't know where to begin yet.
let's just say it was pretty darned awesome. (:

soon. maybe.

till then, here's to home delivery meals.
which ironically is all i've had since i came back to singapore. yep. no nice chicken rice, ban mian, prata, laksa or anything. i had kfc. ):

bof

i've finished.

(:

finally.
lee min ho, i have a love/hate rship with you.

i also got my macbook pro. (:
thanks mum.

goodnight

told myself i would never get addicted.

and i really hated the drama at first. now i can't stop. -.-
haven't been sleeping properly.
and i actually *gasp* cried on one episode.
yucks.

i'm not this type of girl!

and look at them:

they're not even THAT great looking.
you just start making them really good looking because of their characters. -.-

stupid fangirldom is bad for my well being and i greatly do not appreciate it. ):

but they're soooooooo cute
and sooooooo sweet

oh this is so... shallow. rar.

I'm going to malacca tomorrow!

it's been a while.

hope to catch some nice shots with my goldenhalf. (:

oh and cousin's in singapore (:

means i'm sleeping on the floor of my parents room. lol.

kids camp is over.

it was awesome.

and! i am at err... episode 14 of bof. please please have all the episodes. 

i'm sad with my bof dvds, cos the subs are all screwy -.- 

shucks.

more substantial another time.

blisters

haven't used a penknife this much in a long long time. 

but many huge thanks to all the people who came down today to help me cut stuffs. 

massive human labour, but we did it. so thanks (:

the next few days look to be HECTIC.

commit it all to youu. 

i am also quite disappointed that the BOF dvds i got right, the english subtitles lag like 10 seconds -.- maybe i shld check if can exchange tmr. ):